I’ve
been anxious these days because my classmate had lost something that really
matters to me: my pink fan. You know, it’s like our room is at times really
warm because even though there are electric fans or air conditioners, many
people are in the room that’s why the coolness cannot accommodate our number.
Hence, it’s so hot! And it makes me uncomfortable and it reminds me of that
little property of mine. It’s not that I am so overly sentimental but that
little thing worth more than thirty pesos and the worse, I even sacrifice my
afternoon snack just to buy that one. Aside from that, the content of my bag
looks awkward without it. I really still can imagine its fuchsia pink color and
the sound it produce when I flip it. Grr.
Perhaps,
I’m too overreacting about that material and then what? So be it. You know, I
am a kind of person who really value even the teeny-tiniest thing I owned. You
cannot just earn money by walking along the road; it’s from the sweat and blood
of our dear parents and of ours too. For me, every peso counts. I even confront
the person who borrowed it (over lang) but he just gave me reasons I forecast
as lies. Wadahell. It’s really tormenting when you value a thing so much and
others treated it just like a scrap. Sometimes, when I am in a situation like
this, when I lost a property which is supposed to be mine and it was lost
because I intend to give consideration to other people who wants it too, all I
can do is to cry, forgive and sometimes, forget. In life, sacrifice is
sometimes the only solution, thoug anyone cannot deny the fact that on the
opposite side, it really hurts as hell. Nevertheless, you should let go, we
should let go and yes, I should let go. Concrete wise, we could be so angry,
devastated and sometimes, go mad. It would took weeks, months or years or
God-knows-how-long to move on but that is the part of it.
I’ve
been through a lot of sacrifices and it was never been easy. I once sacrificed
for my family, for a friend and for a significant other who was in need.
Sometimes the thing you’re sacrificing is something that you need also.
Perhaps, you’re sacrificing a part of your future, your life, your happiness or
your love. And you may agree or not, to sacrifice is to let go. It’s like
opening your hands to let the butterfly go and at times, that butterfly could
be opportunity, chance, happiness, relationship or a person you learned to love
and value. At times, it could be a treasure gained once in a lifetime.
I
can’t give a concrete advice for this but the only thing that I could say is
that life is short and we just have to live it to the fullest. The purpose is
simply to live lief the way it should be lived. We don’t have to deal with
things or people who left us but instead, to those who stay with us at the end
of the race. After all, if one intend to stay, no matter what he should stay.
Sabi nga, Wala’y mabyaan kung wala’y
magpabiya, wala’y mubiya kung dili gusto mubiya. Whether the statement
satisfies you or not, it only teaches us one thing: the situation is in our
hands and the result depends greatly on the decision we make because one thing
is sure, we are the own drivers of our own lives. And in this situation of
mine, I chose to let go. Relate-relate lang yan. :D
Before
saying Sayonara, I just want to borrow a statement from one of my favorite
bloggers, Ms. Repudiate Sarcasm. And here it is:
Ano ba ang ginagawa
sa mga bagay na nawawala?
Hinahanap.
Eh, ano naman ang
ginagawa sa mga bagay na hindi mo na talaga mahanap?
Pinapalitan.
As
the same, I gonna let that pink fan of mine go and be a good use to its new
owner. I, on the other hand, will buy a new one. Daghan man barato sa Cogon or
sa Plaza Divisoria na night cafe. So, yeko ar. Heehe.
Be
wise, be practical, be you. Ajah!
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